I think the day after a sleepless night is something anyone can relate to. We all occasionally wrestle with the sandman; the fallout from one of these nights is usually the worst part. For me, being the mother of a two-and-a-half-year-old with another baby on the way, the day after a night of tossing and turning can be particularly rough.
I don’t wake up a chipper mom ready to begin the day; instead, I drag my feet and hunt for some coffee. My daughter is used to me being a little bit lazy in the morning, but I feel bad that I am extra tired after a sleepless night. The worst part is that my toddler doesn’t understand why I’m in such a grumpy mood; she deserves a happy and present mommy.
My insomnia is unique in that it is caused by the symptoms of my atopic dermatitis. When I’m itchy, falling asleep can be hard. When I’m lying in bed at night trying to relax, it is a different situation: trying to be still, trying to turn my mind off for the day, trying to not think about the itching. I scratch throughout the day and often don’t think twice about it, but at night my undistracted mind exacerbates the irritation I feel. Before I know it, an hour has passed with me lying there in bed scratching. My gracious husband does not complain, yet I often feel bad for the disruption I may be causing. My tossing and turning often lasts through the night, and sometimes I must wake up to remoisturize my skin or change clothes in an attempt to be more comfortable.
So, to stay on top of my symptoms and avoid disturbed sleep, I have developed some tips and tricks which may help you too if my story above feels all too real:
I am still learning what works for me when it comes to symptom management, and I never know for sure when I’ll have a good night’s sleep. What I do know for sure is that when I get the rest I need, I’m able to be a better mom and wife. I have the focus and energy I need to appreciate the beautiful family that I have. That is worth every grain of Epsom salt in the world.